it's been 1 year!!!!!!

and a day!!!!!!!!!
already!!!!!!!!

it's still kinda unbelievable
a year and a day ago
the memory is still fresh in my brain

the bus engine

whirring

we're heading to the airport
by the bus we rented
bid farewell to our beloved families

on the bus
during the long hours
we chatted
we joked
we laughed
the light and fun atmosphere
felt like we're heading off to taiwan for a trip instead
it's 2am
and Alfred Sim sat beside me
nobody seemed to care about getting some sleep

airport
expensive breakfast
flight delayed
gloomy us

and then we had freshmen camp

and then i was brought here, NCKU

and then i met you, and you, and so many of you

experienced my first freaking cold winter
got drunk right after the new year count down
faced my first final exam that i hated, especially programming

and i still remember that ridiculous freak wearing short pants and slippers hollering "it's hot out here!"

you know who i mean.. ;)

and then it was the end of the first semester
then we went travelling together
being the ONLY foreigner in the entire troupe whom the travel guide had even specially introduced on the bus to everybody like it's a big deal
and then the time i have always waiting for - time to GO HOME

had a merry CNY
ate lots of local malaysian food~~~ oh shoot shouldn't have mentioned this (hungryT.T
friends gathering and not to mention our yumchar tradition at MM
got to hug nana n minmin~ poke je n henry~ say goodnight to mum dad every night~
like we say, it's home sweet home~

and then i was back here, unwillingly
resented all the subjects, ok and skipped almost every classes
finished harry potter, quite a big accomplishment for me~
and then there was the course transferring exam which i thought a lot of people outstood me
which turned out as the opposite and i got in
excited, glad and proud of myself~called mum in the middle of the night and delivered her the first hand hot news~
and then it's final again, and accidentally i got failed in calculus, instead of linear algebra that i thought would fail for sure
dumbfounded, flabbergasted, yeah, woh, turns out my vocabulary isn't too bad after all huh~~ XDDD

and then it's summer~
there's a trip to Taipei with uni friends~with free accommodation~which is HARD to find~
another trip to Hualien with high school buddies~with beautiful beaches~and jaw droppingly awesome canyon~and damn cheap movies~

and now we're all up to hold this freshmen camp for our little juniors~~~
like what they did for us a year ago~





i wish i have a time machine~




still
hard to believe that one year has passed!!!

6。6 so is it doom day?

i want comments ! > <

from whoever staring at this right now~~

though i'm pretty much satisfied with my work already i still want your comments~~!

hmm..

so today..no yesterday was the graduation day huh

saw lots of graduates with flowers on their hands and their robes on

then i wondered

if, IF this changing major thing did not work out

will i be able to graduate, in four years time?

coz i have a feeling that i will never pass Cprogramming(lectured by that devil last sem) no matter how hard i try 囧

and i'm sure my major has more creepier courses waiting, to tear my brain apart

peanut butter sandwich,
in the middle of the night,
when you have nothing else to eat,
and not feeling like going out,
and you're kinda dizzy and ready to go to bed,
but you're still kinda hungry
PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH
PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH
PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH
PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH









k goodnite sweet dreams
n don't forget to comment ~

heartfelt love n warmth~

chatted with mum
got some encouragement from her
tell me to pray hard somemore, like every night before going to bed haha
"sleep earlier ar" "eat healthier ar" "drink more water ar" "come drink now" "take care ar since u're outside alone"
just like usual~some love from several thousands miles away~~

n je~
felt the warmth from ur words~~
thx for standing by myside xD
n the photos u uploaded~


ok tat's all for now
probably one of the shortest posts but definitely one with the most love-ssssss

all of a sudden

i have so many things in my mind
the loan
student tuition grant next year
how am i gonna do good in my subjects which are torturing me right now
to get over 60 and aim towards 70

plus a lot of "what if" ...

haiz...
all of this
happened
because of one mistake
which is never really asked myself what i truly want
back to the time when decision need to be made on which course which school


anyway
i still have a summer to figure out all these mind disturbing questions
hoping to be freed from this entanglement soon

got myself a swimming pass just now
finally
got everything i needed
ready to swim~



linear algebra
oh god



hmm
when there's a lot of worrying stuff going on
and being thousands of miles away from home

i'm just a twenty year old psychologically vulnerable physically-adult mentally-not-so-prepared-yet boy


2 consecutive 33 degrees blazing hot days
*headache*

how

how
to be a self-confident person
to be not skittish all the time whenever there is someone or something new
to be the sunshine, that always brings light and laughter to your friends
to be not shy and nervous when there's no reason to feel so

maybe like je said
you have to pretend like you have so much self confidence
even
if you aren't
when it comes to interviews for jobs
or in my case, speaking test for transferring


sometimes
i just can't seem to find some or if not one good enough reason to be confident
but tons of it to feel the other way



for best^n friends,
what is it in me that you like about, or simply, what makes me your best friends?
have been eager wanting to know the answer for quite a while lol




miss everything but weather in taiping

just when i stare into nothing

gears, and pulleys, dusty and rusty, in this huge skull
can do not much of a work
after a long abandoning
right after UEC
though the exact time was after the huge hurricane which struck our school, i find
hmmmmm...a huge sigh, not as of relief, but disappointment
what if
just what if
all of those dramatic changes happen to be just scenes from an absurd movie, drama series or so?
what if the sea had remained calm, instead like a bolt from the blue
which had left my respected teachers no other way, but to leave...
which had caused the leaving of some closest friends, unwillingly, to another school, for their dear future

what if, i get to choose
i'd rather choose great teachers and great academic results
over all those fancy new hall renovation, new computers replacement, so and so

and now the figuratively 'captain' of the school
caught red handed by his own wife, 'sleeping',not with her,worse still in a newly open fancy hotel, probably hanging a frantic expression on his face
a gargantuan shame on you, not only on that, also on ruining a school slowly, bit by bit, perhaps into nothing one day

from a potential hero, into a "treacherous villain"




whine whine whine~

expecting no phone calls to my house after this post~
oh why do i worry or care anyway 囧



hey pillow come sleep with me

hey it's 1

had been listening to 2 songs repetitively these few days
creep, winter song - ingrid michaelson
simply love 'em

chatted with mom dad
and the conversation started with a "i miss you son" and a "i miss you too" in return

should have slept earlier xD like mom told me to
sorry la
but i read though~
xD

uploaded my homework for the 'creative thinking' class
well as you can see in my previous post, recomposing a song is the major part of it
and then we're asked to include a joke, one that should freeze someone in particular
and also another "brain teaser", a phrase just looked up by googling
here is the former, inspired by the amazing annoying orange:

a little boy was cycling, suddenly a squirrel appeared out of nowhere, crossing the road and now stopped blocking the path of the boy, astonished apparently, as the boy's bike is just mere centimeters away from its head. Then the squirrel squeaked at the boy, "Are you NUTS?!"
...

here comes the brain teaser, googled as well, out of millions i chose this xD :

a boy said he could make his room and all of his toys vanished in less than a second, how?


erm..
by closing his eyes...

it's in chinese originally but since i'm typing alphabets so smoothly that i am a bit lazy to change the typing method err ok i know this isn't the point...

should reread this post when the temperature rises again
this should help in lowering down a few degrees... if not one at least xD


ok enough of crap

it's time
to get some sleep
to go to bed
that i have hoped to be thicker
even by just one inch
it would be soooo muuucccchhh more comfortable

worst combination

3km jogging test + programming homework
just when nothing could be worse

then comes cold
joining this most loathsome team
spreading more misery

now the day has almost come to an end
i'm an ordinary human, with extra running nose, aching legs, and head
then here i am, wondering
the reason i am still struggling, to not let my eyelids close, and refuse to sleep
triumphant, maybe, over them eventually
having my own celebration for staying alive

mr.cold made a promise, he'll leave me alone tomorrow~

stressed out

too much's going on lately
exams, quizzes, assignments

passed up c++ written homework today
thursday circuits homework + physics lab report
friday calculus quiz
saturday chill out going on a trip to kaoshiung uni
monday physics midterm exam
tuesday C++ midterm
following monday C++ program homework due day
thursday circuits midterm
saturday calculus contest

and what's worse - most of them is TOO difficult for a dumb like me

hated all the subs i'm learning now
failling in transferring would be a total disaster

oh gosh
someone please help me through this

cold n dusty

from 27C tuesday to today's 15C alongside with cold and dusty wind
how drastic

lady gaga's officially my new favorite
from once dislike her to kinda like her songs few months ago to just lovin' every song of hers today
both released or the opposite
teeth, wonderful, speechless, telephone, fancy pants, second time around
if i could just name a few

watched devil who wears prada
after seeing ken reading a rather thin 'novel' of the same story XD
it's nice and not to mention anne hathaway's eyes are round and big and beautiful~aren't they huh
just like minmin n nana
oh how i wish i could hug 'em now~~~

had rice for lunch, tomato based soupy kinda rice with seafood
nt 110
pretty much an *expensive meal
since i've always tried to scrimp and save
well... maybe not always
but an occasional treat for myself wouldn't be any bad right

*i know it's considered c-h-e-a-p in aussie eliza


how would someone still book my book when there's another same titled book lying on the rack in the library which he could have just went straight there and borrow it?!
that means i'll have to return it on time and borrow the other which he could have read half of it already by then   zzzzzz



started loving the habit of reading~ good thing~

here it goes again~

yup

it's only the first homework

programming

that i hate

that i really really really dooooo HATE

that is already frustrating me

and now i already can't figure it out by myself

has anyone ever felt this way

when you should or have to finish something by yourself

but you have no idea on where to start or even what to ask

and when the internet can't help

and when reading the text book did the same

when u're struggling so hard inside to think and ur hands are unable to do the equal amount of work

being helpless

and just let those marks flew away

helpless...

yea

helpless

maybe

this time round

i should just aim for an overall score of sixty

in order to fulfill the requirements of the student grant

just get all subs pass

if not close to it at least

no pressure jarrel

no pressure...

u'll be freed

eventually u'll be good once more

like the old you old times

once you've got transfered

successfully...

hopefully...

cozy nice sunny...sunday

this day last month

we're all together

celebrating

took a family photo

a tradition which started last year~

and now

we are all

apart

apart from every single one of you

but then

leaving

not every part of it is bad

another bunch of friends here

cheering my days up

another kind of weather

keeping me away from the furious sun

the only 3 things i miss

3 Fs

family, friends and undeniably FOOD

glad that i at least brought chili sauce =)

it just match perfectly with burgers, subs, eggs etc

loving LIFE~~~~chili sauce xD

there're still 30 plus chapters left lol

but still

i promise i'll finish u harrypotter

soo sooo sooooo looking forward to the international food carnival next week

hoping there'll be at least some sambal ikan bilis lol

speaking of sambal

that only shop that sells nasi lemak had closed!!!permanently!!! T.T

what a pity...

telephone by lady gaga ft beyonce

cool~

some more over 100 million hits in less than 3 days since its release

omg

started playing BNB

kinda like bomberman

played it online with frens

hoping that i won't get...addicted? lol

chill out chill

chill is good but u've gone over the top!!!

the only funny thing is finally i have the chance to see his cold till shivers face XD

yup the little funny always-claiming-"it's hot!" HAEUK KIM finally said he's cold XDDD

found myself talking 'gluey' every time when the sentence is too long lol

weirdly enough this doesn't occur when i read out loud from a book

wondering...

how long would i take to finish reading harry potter...

starting to love my new cam

good in both long n close shots

now where should i put these emptied new year biscuits containers in ==?

next tuesday, first gathering of piano club

wednesday, piano+violin concert~

couldn't wait to learn~~xD

plus y everybody seems so busy with their college life, homework, assignment n bla bla while i'm the one with most leisure time and least assignment ==

by saying everybody i mean eliza, cb, alfred

time flies

it kinda awed me when i suddenly realise the fact that winter break is already coming to an end this sunday

and i'll be going back to taiwan in just a few days time

and also the fact that i'll not get to go home until winter break next year

a year later, literally

the only good thing is i don have to bear this extreme heat anymore for the next four months at least lol

i'll come for u tomoro, cendol~~

where on earth still exist a sister that is willing to clean and rub a 20 year-old brother's face and make it smooth smooth?

mine does ^^

been sick for this few days

still not fully recovered =3=

sien nia

go dinner can't order tomyam summore =3=

last nite go play cards

not getting any bit of fun

just feel like go there

hand over the money

rm1 one by one

then go home

and also got lil bit of dizzy @@

not tat into the mood of birding

u know, not fully recovered yet

to be contented, easier

is what i need to learn

otherwise i'll just lose the ability of even just having fun

yup

and also be more sporting

and sporty lol

new year's fun~

but less merry compared to the old times

when the atmosphere of celebrating cny will last for at least a week before everybody's back to work and school

anyway the angpaos amount received this year round did surprise me though XD

study hard, play hard

now, I feel like neither am I.

another dilemma i'm facing

whether to change my major

a part of me feel like staying and continue fighting with this bunch of friends

another part of me hates the courses which i'm gonna face in the next few years

stay or go~?

ooohhh what do i do~~~~

it's freaking cold today

10 degree

the lowest temp i've ever experienced in my entire life

thanks for the PURE handmade scarf by the great ELIZA CHIAM (satisfied?XD

thx dude~

that freak haeuk

shorts and slippers?!

are you serious?!?!

Change by Carrie Underwood

great song

Whatcha gonna do with the 36 cents
Sticky with Coke on your floorboard
When a woman on the street is huddled in the cold
On a sidewalk vent trying to keep warm
Do you call her over, hand her the change
Ask her story, ask her her name
Or do you tell yourself

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

Oh, whatcha gonna do when you're watching TV
And an ad comes on yeah you know the kind
Flashing up pictures of a child in need
For a dime a day you could save a life
Do you call the number, reach out a hand
Or do you change the channel, call it a scam
Or do you tell yourself

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Oh, the smallest thing can make all the difference
Love is alive, don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

The world's so big it can break your heart
And you just want to help not sure where to start
So you close your eyes, and send up a prayer into the dark

You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Don't listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world
Oh, the smallest thing can make all the difference
Love is alive, don't you listen to 'em when they say
You're just a fool
Just a fool to believe you can change the world

gonna prepare for the democracy exam~

wish me luck tomorrow~

hmm...

i don watch anime

i don read comics

i don read novels

i don play online games

hmm...

i wonder how would i ever fit in...

when all those are the main 'elements' in every chat EEEEEEEEVERYTIME~

let alone playing sudoku on my phone

all i could do is juz smile || "really?haha..." || finish up my (food || drinks)

i facebook

i watch soap dramas

i watch talk shows

i watch reality shows

i listen to billboard

which they apparently don't

at least from wat i observed

none of the above was brought up in a conversation

hmm...

i wonder...

原来‘不懂’和‘不知道’有差哦 ==

'ng' ? 'zhenyoong' ? or '___' ?

everytime talking to foreigners (oh no, i'm one too) , everytime when i want to introduce myself, this awkwardness appears everytime...(omg, 3 everytime in 1 sentence==)

"juz call me 'ng',"

"juz 'ng'??"

"ya, 'ng' " (weird~)

囧

or

"juz call me 'zhenyoong',"

" 'zhenyoong'?"

"oh...ok..."

and after that everyone forgets what's my name and i have to repeat once more..

couldn't think of a special yet meaningful yet not-too-weird english name

any good suggestions??

it's so dusty here in my room

don't know where to find a broom to sweep the floor at least....for the first time lol

spent another 970 for textbook==

dang(a new slang learned from a new frenXD) C programming

Haeuk reminded me of local malaysian food...again~~~

juz thinking of tat makes me mouthwatering right now

tomyum, nasi lemak, laksa, ais kacang, cendol, mee rebus, sepetang curry mee... etc T.T

really have to write down a list

so that i won't miss any of those by the time i go home

i Go

a great song by malaysian local artist Aizat - I Go from the movie directed by Yasmin Ahmad

hmm...let's talk about today~

woke up at 10

online till 1

went for lunch then with roomate

back to room at 1.30

online till 4

took a nap till 6.30

went for dinner and bought some bread then

back at 8

online till now..

what a boring sunday~

missed the gathering yesterday and they went to the night market...not because they didn't ask...just that almost every news here is spread by using bbs ...which is still a new platform i'm not used to use

but anyway, there's still a barbeque gathering tomorrow~hoping to know more people and have fun with my new friends~

it's JULY

with shock and with no clue at all, rz had already left yesterday~without a single bye...

well if it's not tianhua, i would thought that he's still in town

he told me he's in the rush packing his luggage.. in the morning..while he's leaving in the afternoon for shah alam to study...so he has no time to even say bye..

haiz...

another left..

half month later..

another 2 will leave..

as well..

n soon

all of us will do... too..

huuh~

i really can't imagine my life after moving out from this little town n heading for taiwan..

i mean.. i like cities..

but there's certainly no where else that feels more like home...like taiping does..

n also..

without friends like u all..

i'll have to struggle to know another whole new bunch of friends all over again..

which is a not so easy task to me...i think~

as a shy n not so talkative person.. it's not easy for me to get along very well with another stranger n make him/her become a 'friend' of mine

n so..i'll miss u..frens~

hope we'll have a chance to gather around sometime...someday...soon~

it's JuLy

a Goodbye July..

best show ever

anyone reading this post MUST go n watch the latest season of american idol
it's the best season ever n now it has come to the final three adam, kris, n danny(all boys lol)
sadly the only girl left allison have to leave the competition because to be honest i think she is better than danny n kris on last show, but anyway my favourite pick adam is still in n i hope he wins in the finals~!!